Take my money, Fendi!

I have been searching for a substantial and well-made bag since the beginning of this year. My requirements are the following: messenger-style; sleek; and preferably made of leather. I've been eyeing a few, but they were out of my budget or they simply didn't make me fall in love. The latter is very important because it's hard for me to part with my hard-earned money! 

A few months ago, I stumbled upon one from Fendi that met all of my requirements. I really liked the style. However, it was way too much. I tried to not think of it but there was just something alluring about it. One day, out of boredom, I found myself at the Fendi store. The bag that I had seen on the website was there in front of my eyes. It came in two colors: black and brown. I asked the sales person if it came in dark gray, and she said it didn't. I purposely asked the question even if I knew it only came in two colors just so she wouldn't push me into getting one. Haha. I insisted that I have a lot of black bags already and the brown doesn't compliment me. But the sales person wanted me to try it on anyway. I said alright. And surprisingly, I really liked it. But of course, I couldn't just walk out of the store with that said bag mainly because it was way too much.

I was not serious about the bag. It was not my priority to get one. But part of me wished I had the bag in the color I initially disliked. By the way, it was not brown but mocha. Haha. 

I searched for the bag online because sometimes, they are a lot cheaper. But there was none that I could find. I checked if it'd be cheaper in Europe because I thought I was going to Paris anyway. But that did not materialize. 

Anyway, as mentioned, I was not serious about the bag at all. But I was still searched for others. I looked into Porter. I think they make one of the most practical and sturdiest bags in the world. And they aren't too expensive either. I was not looking for a luxury bag after all. I think I've graduated from that phase. Haha. I think bags (or any goods for that matter) with blatant branding is plain tacky. But then again, I was not serious about purchasing. I just knew that eventually, I'd have to buy one. 

Last Thursday, while casually browsing the Fendi website, the bag was on sale. My heart skipped for a minute. It was 30% off. Relatively a low discount. But the price seemed a lot better than the original. I was still out of my budget. But it was something I was willing to pay for. I called the person who assisted me before. And she told me they had a new one in stock. She told me there were only six pieces bought in the US. And I was like whatever. Haha. I paid for it over the phone. And picked it up after work the following day.

Here's the bag:

And I'm deliriously happy to own it. It's the most expensive bag I own. But I don't feel any sense of remorse. I'm so tired of feeling bad. It's time I thought about me. For once.