Guilty

Currently at Sinclair Library. Just finished composing a paper for a class that will start in about 2 hours. It wasn't hard. It was just a 1-page reflection paper about the assigned readings for this week. Anyway, I'm currently listening to the breeze of September air. I've always found the weather here at Manoa to be pleasant and nice. Brings back a lot of memories of undergrad aided by the fact that I'm I'm in the same exact place as I was when I started my higher education academic career. But gone are the days when I had easy classes. Haha. Grad school is challenging! It's not a joke, and it's very expensive. But I think I can do it, though it takes extra time for me to grasp the topics compared to my classmates who are very smart (though, they're very nice!). 

I think it helps that I'm not working. I get to really concentrate. Though I have to admit that I'm struggling a bit. I haven't been in an academic setting in years! As much as I like being a student again, I can't fully embrace like I used to. Things then were very different. Back when I was an undergrad, it was my only responsibility.  But now, being in grad school is really not the most economical. I have to be honest: I feel a sense of guilt because I feel that I should be working and earning money at this stage of my life. And it's so ironic because I resigned my job for this. I don't know why I'm even saying these things because it is I who got me into this situation. I'm not saying I regret my decisions because I don't! As I've said, I like the fact that I'm not working and I love that I'm back in school. It's just that, I can't help but feel bad especially since my mom is not very supportive of these decisions. Honestly, it would really help if she was.